Why we write...

Siri Hustvedt:

"The irony of writing well is that it requires an immense inner world, which is at least in part made up of the books one has read, the hundreds of voices from the past that speak from within. At the same time, no one can write without “adaptive grandiosity.” I stole this phrase from a psychoanalyst who used it to describe artists. Adaptive grandiosity is an inner belief that what you have to say, your inner feelings, thoughts, imaginings are somehow of value to the rest of the world. Who knows where this comes from? Nevertheless, it is essential. Lastly, experience has taught me that good work can only appear when the writer is relaxed and open, when she or he is able to attune her or himself to a deep inner music and then sing on the page."

(dintr-un interviu din 2012)

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Joan Didion:

"In many ways writing is the act of saying I, of imposing oneself upon other people, of saying listen to me, see it my way, change your mind. It's an aggressive, even a hostile act. You can disguise its qualifiers and tentative subjunctives, with ellipses and evasions - even the whole manner of intimating rather than claiming, of alluding rather than stating - but there's no getting around the fact that setting words on paper is the tactic of a secret bully, an invasion, an imposition of the writer's sensibility on the reader's most private space"

(dintr-un eseu distribuit de Cristina Bazavan)

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Am scris dintotdeauna. Jurnalele si poemele adolescentei, proza tineretii, blogging, articole, poeme iar, poate iar proza. Nu stiu o cale de a trai fara sa scriu. Prost sau mai bine, in functie de cum imi evolueaza mintea, mana si tehnica. Stiu sigur ca vine din interior, ca nu ma poti imagina fara sa las in urma mea cuvinte, ca ele fac parte din modul meu de a functiona. Este mai degraba un fel de maladie secreta, nu neaparat un 'talent' de vreme ce nu am absolut nicio garantie asupra calitatii 'produselor' mele.

Si desi mi-am pastrat critica asupra limitelor propriei mele persoane, senzatia ca 'am ceva de spus' nu ma paraseste aproape niciodata. Adaptive grandiosity indeed and maybe a subconcious imposition, too :) 

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